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I’ve slipped back into my depression the past couple of days. Add on top of that the fact that I was retarded enough to go grocery shopping this morning, wasted hours of my day on a failed attempt at baking, then had a horrible drive to Site B. Then, as if I wasn’t feeling bad enough, I walked into the place and found myself yelling at the dogs I haven’t seen in a month.
The icing on the cake was opening my phone to check the time, and seeing this kind reminder… 🙁 Drinking at Shokan tonight, anybody want to join me? I’ll be drinking alone tomorrow night in Poughkeepsie 🙂

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So I realized that this semester was to prove a point. To show the world how much of a failure I am. Show everyone that I can’t handle anything in life.
With this semester, I have thrown my life away. How depressing is that?

The worst part about finals week is sitting around waiting for the final to begin. It’s like the whole week is just a race to get to the end. However, waiting for the OpSys presentation, is like waiting for your turn at the firing squad.

It’s almost been a week since I explained how I hate being a student, and you would think that I would just suck it up and get this week over with. Truthfully, I’ve been toying with the idea of not being a student. I almost don’t care if Marist kicks me out of school.
OK, now that I scared you, updates. The OS is pretty much done. It works, it does what it is supposed to do. Tomorrow afternoon is our presentation. I still need to finish some documentation, and wait for a trace to be printed, but as long as I study for the presentation and can relax, all will be fine. With that class at least….
I don’t know how I’m gonna force myself to learn a semester’s worth of Computer Networking before Wednesday’s exam. No way in hell for me in that class, especially with my Multimedia project due Wednesday afternoon (I haven’t paid as much attention to that as I should have either). All I’m hoping to do is get my ass in gear and put in the best effort I can and hope for the best. I already failed Algorithm Analysis, but I would feel bad passing that class without putting in the right amount of effort.
The worst part about this semester is that there’s no reason I couldn’t have done well in all 4 of my classes. After dropping Marriage & Family I had enough time to focus on all 4 of them. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. That’s what’s been bothering me most about this semester. Granted, I’m not an A student, but by my standards, I could have done very well with these classes.
Enough with looking ahead, what did I do over the weekend…. Well, between cramming sessions and getting mad at my lack of artistic skills, I saw my father. I showed him the hacker space real quick, and showed him the outside of the house (been there over a year, and he just now saw it). He even called to apologize for my half sister’s oddness towards me ^_^. I took a trip to SUNY New Paltz to attend the end of the MHVLUG install fest, but after walking through the closed building we concluded that they already left. Drove around the village in the wrong direction and finally found them at a restaurant called Barnaby’s. Also started watching Smallville. Don’t know what the appeal is, but I do like watching it. It’s not the best writing and seems too much like a drama compared to other shows I watch, but it has an interesting concept. And unlike other towns in this country, everything is attractive and has money. And even when battered and bruised in a hospital bed, Chloe is fucking cute. ^_^ Almost makes me want to live in Smallville.